Ben

I wrote to Lisa and wrote this about Ben ~~

Ben is 24 (I think) and is really in turmoil about what he is going to do with his life.  I pray that he will follow his heart into missions.  He has gone on several of these types of small mission trips and each time comes back really stoked and it fizzles out in time. He even attended a year at New Tribes Bible Institute.  God knows.

So, I could add this to a prayer list.

Then I sent Boo an email with this in it..... his response, "thanks"

Ben, 

I have been thinking on you, praying as well, for some reason, only God knows about. 

I went to twitter for kicks and giggles and read this tweet by Mike.  

It seemed I should send it to you. I am just the messenger. 

I am always astonished in the fact that The Lord is my kinsman redeemer, not because of me but inspite of me. 

I love you

	Mike Donehey (@mikedonehey)
2/24/13, 6:46 PM I am quite convinced. God does not use us because we're useful. He uses us because He is a redeemer.

Talking to my Shepherd

Matt 6:5,6   See Hope Journal.

5 "When you pray, you are not to be like the hypocrites; for they love to stand and pray in the synagogues and on the street corners so that they may be seen by men. Truly I say to you, they have their reward in full. 6 But you, when you pray, go into your inner room, close your door and pray to your Father who is in secret, and your Father who sees what is done in secret will reward you.



I will make a list of things to be purposeful in prayer, directed and not just babbling

withdrawn

I have just spent 10 days in bed with my laptop and DVD's.
Ate just about everything possible.
Missed meds.
Abandoned Cheryl.
It's 130, the heat is on and I must travel out into the snow and into the site of people.
I tried to see if Cheryl was free but she is with Jackie, who needs time away from her mum.
I've made my list, all I need to do now is take a shower and go.

Daughter of God

i am....

A. L. O. N. E.

dammit....

I feel so utterly alone I am sobbing.....

So do not fear for I am with you
do not be dismayed for I am your God
I will strengthen you and help you
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand
Is 41:10

And right down the page I read..

For I am the Lord your God
who takes hold of your right hand
and says to you "Do not fear, I will help you."


I feel like this is His reassurance that I do not have to go through the tax crap alone...He is here and will not leave me.

Gentle Shepherd, come to me in my loneliness

Come and make my heart Your home.
Come and be everything I am and all I know.
Search me through and through 'till my heart becomes a home for You.
A home for You, Lord.
A home for You, Lord.
Let everything I do open up,
A door for You to come through,
And that my heart would be a place where You want to be.
Come and make my heart Your home.
Come and be everything I am and all I know.
Search me through and through 'till my heart becomes a home for You.
You are my portion, filling up everything.
You are the fortune that's causing my heart to sing.
That it's amazing, that You could make Yourself at home with me.
Come and make my heart,
Come and make it Your home.
Come and be everything I am and all I know.
Search me through and through 'till my heart becomes a home for You.

letting go of Robert L

My "affliction" is telling Robert L I am LETTING GO....that I must trust God and obey in this "test of refinement"..... but oh dear Lord, how?  How do I do this??

Oh Shepherd, this man is unGodly and I am to let him go.
I must prune is little inroad into my heart away and I just do NOT know how to do it.

I NEED you to tell me how to do this.  I will hurt his feelings.

I MUST trust and obey.  I must have faith that there is a reason for this.  When God speaks, I act. That is faith.

So I am begging you to help me.....finish what you have spoken to me that I must do.  Help me !!
I need your mercy in this time of need. Heb 4:16

I am missing mum soooo much today !!!

I love you

I WILL NEED THIS LATER

Romans 4: 13-25
I was reading...Satan doesnt want us to be confident that God is able and willing to meet all our needs, to support us through every circumstance.  Whether we can "touch bottom" or are in situations way over our heads, God will never leave (ME) us.  His goodness and grace keep us afloat. We(I NEED) need to know that in our heads and in our hearts.  With that confidence and faith, we are carried along in our walk with Christ, ABLE to take my focus off of my daunting circumstances and onto Jesus.

As I was reading this Matt Redmann came on the radio with "10 thousand reasons":
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DXDGE_lRI0E


Bless the Lord, O my soul
O my soul
Worship His holy name
Sing like never before
O my soul
I'll worship Your holy name

The sun comes up, it's a new day dawning
It's time to sing Your song again
Whatever may pass, and whatever lies before me
Let me be singing when the evening comes

You're rich in love, and You're slow to anger
Your name is great, and Your heart is kind
For all Your goodness I will keep on singing
Ten thousand reasons for my heart TO FIND

And on that day when my strength is failing
The end draws near and my time has come
Still my soul will sing Your praise unending
Ten thousand years and then forevermore

Jesus, I'll worship Your holy name
Lord, I'll worship Your holy name

Sing like never before
O my soul
I'll worship Your holy name
Jesus, I'll worship Your holy name
I'll worship Your holy name

I just became so aware that I must Bless His Name and truly find a reason to prarise Him