Proverbs 4:23

I saw Sheri after several weeks of upheaval and the verse on her wall was indeed the exact same instructions she gave to me ::
Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life.


Jan 2 I wrote a letter to my siblings, one not to be sent unless Sheri advised.  I have been
instructed to share NOTHING with my siblings ~~ no feelings, no thoughts, nothing.For I am now understanding letters like the one I wrote do not make sense to them, they do not want to know my feelings and when I share them it only gives them more ammunition (my word).

How much better to guard my heart instead of pouring it out in from of swine's feet.


When tempests arise, woe to the mariners that have not strengthened their mast, nor cast their anchor, nor sought the haven. If we suffer the good to grow weaker, the evil will surely gather strength and struggle desperately for the mastery over us; and as a result a painful desolation and a lamentable disgrace may follow. Let us draw near to the footstool of divine mercy in humble entreaty, and we shall realize the fulfillment of the promise, "They who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength."
http://www.truthforlife.org/resources/daily-devotionals/1/2/

I am so grateful for Sheri.  She has given me insights into who I am, who God is, how I relate to others and they to me............  my family .......
sees me only in crisis from crisis.  That is such a wretched thought.
My instruction are....it is the practicing that will be harder:
remove my self physically when getting near an angry place..... before it gets to rage and I am out of control.
I am seen as always being in that anxious or angry place that eventually turns to rage.
Do NOT share anything personal with family, esp siblings, for the next 2 months.