I really loved Jordan Aire.....truly.
I bought him for Steve's family.
I just picked up Danni's ashes, and i truly believe I love her more.
She was my guard dog, my constant companion, my blessing no matter how depressed I was, patient, sympathetic and empathetic; she always wanted to be with me ~ at my side; I cherish that.
Yes I truly cherish my Danni. You will be greatly missed girlfriend,
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
written Jan 3, never entered
I control my own feelings....
Other people's actions and words CANNOT controll my feelings.
I Choose how I respond/react.
Only I am the secret to MY happiness. NOT others.
Jan 2 I wrote a letter to my siblings, one not to be sent unless Sheri advised. I have been instructed to share NOTHING with my siblings ~~ no feelings, no thoughts, nothing
For I am now understanding letters like the one I wrote do not make sense to them, they do not want to know my feelings and when I share them it only gives them more ammunition (my word).
I wrote:
Until you live it, breath it and are intimate with your own problem, others just have no understanding.
Mark came over and we spent time in intimate problem solving and it became painfully aware to me; that what we ONCE WERE, never seems to be forgotten, forgiven and is a thrown into the fire of a new problem so that the one having said problem is never quenched from the very ones who can forgive, forget and if not forget,then realize that every passing day, change is possible and motives are held in secret unless one asks.
Grace asked.
Yes my relationship with "God" has been weary and has been awesome; but only those who do not judge find comfort that God is powerful enough to do a good work in someone's life.
I have freely admitted my faults and failures, those I know about; but if someone else sees something and then dismisses time to sit down and tell someone their truth of what they see, what good is it to another? I see it as toilet paper trailing from underpanties and a skirt stuck up a crotch and no one bothers to help or take aside the offender and laugh, encourage and help fix offense.
Grace decided to take matters into her own hands and "fix" but instead it caused many a ripple on this side.
You see, because I thought Gracie understood the deep emotion coming from my soul, I sought her out. Instead it made hers worse. And overboard she went with trying to fix a problem which was not really there.
BUT, she did help me find the way to look for answers.
As this was all happening, a woman called and announced she was mom's Anthem BCBS case manager. I shared MY problem. I shared what I THOUGHT was mom's.
Then Gracie said BCBS paid for up to 8 hrs of "care." I brought that to the attention of mom's CM and asked was it true. I held my breath and fervently cried out to God that it was true. Several weeks later I learned that mom could have up to 8 hrs per day of ONLY certified nursing care, not companion care. Along with the CNA came an RN.
As I have openly said before but will say again, thank you Gracie for finding Advantage. An agency I knew nothing about and was NOT listed on the State registry, now is.
With all this stress the last month, mom has developed something very disheartening. She has had a few TIA's and will see her cardiologist Jan 4. This only occured because I dared boldly face the medical system and tell them to STOP focusing on mom's diabetes and demanded to see Dr Willard.
In process was the working of God. I see it clearly now.
As mom was developing this new problem, Pastor James and Elizabeth stepped in to help me, and then Margaret (RN case manager from Advantage) did as well.
Mom was slowly developing this new problem as HER stress and my stress levels increased. I asked Margaret for evening care for mom one day and the next day I had it. Our morning care is still being ironed out.
Yolanda has worked with adults all of her CNA career. I am a pediatric nurse. I have never stated I knew all about mom's diabetes (until July when we last saw Dr Willard) but I know about anything pertaining to cardiovascular, including TIA's.
Last night as we were eating, mom began; I asked Yolanda to watch her eat (literally play with her food, stuff her mouth full, look as if sleeping and have garbled erratic and strange speech) and she told me as I have suspected . . . mom has "sundowners syndrome." Please read http://sundownerfacts.com/sundowners-syndrome/
http://www.everydayhealth.com/alzheimers/alzheimers-progression.aspx
Mom does have all of stage 7 symptoms and quite a few other symptoms quite notably her memory of recor past events. As with Dad, I learned MORE about his childhood after the accident and mom is telling me more about her past and very little about recent as these memories are fading.
Don was here yesterday and saw another episode of mom flushing white, inability to walk or stand up well. It last about 1 hr. Her blood sugar and blood pressure were fine, but I did send a pacer transmission as she said she suddenly got dizzy
I will need to study up on early alzheimer's as I suggest all of you do in order to understand.
Many of you were very put out when I said it might be mom's last Christmas; I stand by that, as do others.
Because others here, including Don, are more closely associated and aware of mom's problems AND mine, I will update all of you but I will not ask for help. If I need your help with something specific, do NOT read into my request and if you cannot support me in that specific request, say so and I will seek out Pastor James.
I am going to ask that you no longer ask "who will make mom's decisions for her" and that you no longer call me/say of me that I am incapable of handling or dealing with any of mom's "life."
I am capable and if you need proof, I feel sorry for you, but I will provide it.
Mom's will and estate are her's and her choices and decisions alone. They will be shared with you on a need to know basis and I am being backed by mom and Pastor James.
Back to Gracie's straight out question ~~ if you cannot tell or know, that is the only way I know what is being said or asked for as I externally process my communication, I cannot read your minds as you internally process yours. As I met with Sheri week after week, the date grew closer to a group therapy session she was conducting. Finally I asked, may I join? It was in regards to "inner healing" based on Terry Wardle's testimony, experience and teaching. http://www.healingcare.org/
Part of mom's prayers have been answered.
Sincerely, ElLois
How much better to guard my heart instead of pouring it out in from of swine's feet.
Since I wrote this, I have found out that Anthem needs a PA from the agency....
mom is diagnosed with mild vascular dementia
Other people's actions and words CANNOT controll my feelings.
I Choose how I respond/react.
Only I am the secret to MY happiness. NOT others.
Jan 2 I wrote a letter to my siblings, one not to be sent unless Sheri advised. I have been instructed to share NOTHING with my siblings ~~ no feelings, no thoughts, nothing
For I am now understanding letters like the one I wrote do not make sense to them, they do not want to know my feelings and when I share them it only gives them more ammunition (my word).
I wrote:
Until you live it, breath it and are intimate with your own problem, others just have no understanding.
Mark came over and we spent time in intimate problem solving and it became painfully aware to me; that what we ONCE WERE, never seems to be forgotten, forgiven and is a thrown into the fire of a new problem so that the one having said problem is never quenched from the very ones who can forgive, forget and if not forget,then realize that every passing day, change is possible and motives are held in secret unless one asks.
Grace asked.
Yes my relationship with "God" has been weary and has been awesome; but only those who do not judge find comfort that God is powerful enough to do a good work in someone's life.
I have freely admitted my faults and failures, those I know about; but if someone else sees something and then dismisses time to sit down and tell someone their truth of what they see, what good is it to another? I see it as toilet paper trailing from underpanties and a skirt stuck up a crotch and no one bothers to help or take aside the offender and laugh, encourage and help fix offense.
Grace decided to take matters into her own hands and "fix" but instead it caused many a ripple on this side.
You see, because I thought Gracie understood the deep emotion coming from my soul, I sought her out. Instead it made hers worse. And overboard she went with trying to fix a problem which was not really there.
BUT, she did help me find the way to look for answers.
As this was all happening, a woman called and announced she was mom's Anthem BCBS case manager. I shared MY problem. I shared what I THOUGHT was mom's.
Then Gracie said BCBS paid for up to 8 hrs of "care." I brought that to the attention of mom's CM and asked was it true. I held my breath and fervently cried out to God that it was true. Several weeks later I learned that mom could have up to 8 hrs per day of ONLY certified nursing care, not companion care. Along with the CNA came an RN.
As I have openly said before but will say again, thank you Gracie for finding Advantage. An agency I knew nothing about and was NOT listed on the State registry, now is.
With all this stress the last month, mom has developed something very disheartening. She has had a few TIA's and will see her cardiologist Jan 4. This only occured because I dared boldly face the medical system and tell them to STOP focusing on mom's diabetes and demanded to see Dr Willard.
In process was the working of God. I see it clearly now.
As mom was developing this new problem, Pastor James and Elizabeth stepped in to help me, and then Margaret (RN case manager from Advantage) did as well.
Mom was slowly developing this new problem as HER stress and my stress levels increased. I asked Margaret for evening care for mom one day and the next day I had it. Our morning care is still being ironed out.
Yolanda has worked with adults all of her CNA career. I am a pediatric nurse. I have never stated I knew all about mom's diabetes (until July when we last saw Dr Willard) but I know about anything pertaining to cardiovascular, including TIA's.
Last night as we were eating, mom began; I asked Yolanda to watch her eat (literally play with her food, stuff her mouth full, look as if sleeping and have garbled erratic and strange speech) and she told me as I have suspected . . . mom has "sundowners syndrome." Please read http://sundownerfacts.com/sundowners-syndrome/
http://www.everydayhealth.com/alzheimers/alzheimers-progression.aspx
Mom does have all of stage 7 symptoms and quite a few other symptoms quite notably her memory of recor past events. As with Dad, I learned MORE about his childhood after the accident and mom is telling me more about her past and very little about recent as these memories are fading.
Don was here yesterday and saw another episode of mom flushing white, inability to walk or stand up well. It last about 1 hr. Her blood sugar and blood pressure were fine, but I did send a pacer transmission as she said she suddenly got dizzy
I will need to study up on early alzheimer's as I suggest all of you do in order to understand.
Many of you were very put out when I said it might be mom's last Christmas; I stand by that, as do others.
Because others here, including Don, are more closely associated and aware of mom's problems AND mine, I will update all of you but I will not ask for help. If I need your help with something specific, do NOT read into my request and if you cannot support me in that specific request, say so and I will seek out Pastor James.
I am going to ask that you no longer ask "who will make mom's decisions for her" and that you no longer call me/say of me that I am incapable of handling or dealing with any of mom's "life."
I am capable and if you need proof, I feel sorry for you, but I will provide it.
Mom's will and estate are her's and her choices and decisions alone. They will be shared with you on a need to know basis and I am being backed by mom and Pastor James.
Back to Gracie's straight out question ~~ if you cannot tell or know, that is the only way I know what is being said or asked for as I externally process my communication, I cannot read your minds as you internally process yours. As I met with Sheri week after week, the date grew closer to a group therapy session she was conducting. Finally I asked, may I join? It was in regards to "inner healing" based on Terry Wardle's testimony, experience and teaching. http://www.healingcare.org/
Part of mom's prayers have been answered.
Sincerely, ElLois
How much better to guard my heart instead of pouring it out in from of swine's feet.
Since I wrote this, I have found out that Anthem needs a PA from the agency....
mom is diagnosed with mild vascular dementia
guotes
am trying to figure out where I should place all my quotes .................
~~ Helen Keller
True happiness is not attained through self gratification, but through fidelity to a worthy purpose.
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Believe, when you are most unhappy, that there is something for you to do in the world. So long as you can sweeten another's pain, life is not in vain.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Keep your face to the sunshine and you cannot see the shadows.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~Kahilil Gibean
Let the season of giving be mine and not my inheritors.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I want a joyous, loving, respectful relationship where the male is in charge and deserves to be.
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Sometimes courage is just a tiny voice at the end of the day saying: "I will try again tomorrow".
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that certainly didn't hurt !!
~~ Helen Keller
True happiness is not attained through self gratification, but through fidelity to a worthy purpose.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Believe, when you are most unhappy, that there is something for you to do in the world. So long as you can sweeten another's pain, life is not in vain.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Keep your face to the sunshine and you cannot see the shadows.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~Kahilil Gibean
Let the season of giving be mine and not my inheritors.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I want a joyous, loving, respectful relationship where the male is in charge and deserves to be.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Sometimes courage is just a tiny voice at the end of the day saying: "I will try again tomorrow".
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
that certainly didn't hurt !!
I finally met John Harris yesterday. I came out into the garage and there stood a skinny man with a bald head.
For alk that I have heard about him, gentle man and very kind.... I wonder if it is because he is too handsome that he doesn't have a gal be forward. Mum E said he will be a bachelor for life. oh well . . . . . .
For alk that I have heard about him, gentle man and very kind.... I wonder if it is because he is too handsome that he doesn't have a gal be forward. Mum E said he will be a bachelor for life. oh well . . . . . .
Sunday, May 23, 2010
NEEDTOBREATHE - Something Beautiful
From the album The Outsiders
I feel the waves crashing on my feet
It's like I know where I need to be
I can't figure out
No, I can't figure out
Just how much air I will need to breathe When your wave crashes over me There's only one way to figure out Will you let me drown Will you let me drown
Hey now, this is my desire
Consume me like a fire
Cause I just want
Something beautiful to touch me
I know that I'm in reach
I am down on my knees
And waiting for
Something beautiful
And the water is rising quick
And for years I was scared of it
We can't be sure when it will subside
So I won't leave your side
No I can't leave your side
Hey now, this is my desire
Consume me like a fire
Cause I just want
Something beautiful to touch me
I know that I'm in reach
I am down on my knees
And waiting for
Something beautiful
From the album The Outsiders
I feel the waves crashing on my feet
It's like I know where I need to be
I can't figure out
No, I can't figure out
Just how much air I will need to breathe When your wave crashes over me There's only one way to figure out Will you let me drown Will you let me drown
Hey now, this is my desire
Consume me like a fire
Cause I just want
Something beautiful to touch me
I know that I'm in reach
I am down on my knees
And waiting for
Something beautiful
And the water is rising quick
And for years I was scared of it
We can't be sure when it will subside
So I won't leave your side
No I can't leave your side
Hey now, this is my desire
Consume me like a fire
Cause I just want
Something beautiful to touch me
I know that I'm in reach
I am down on my knees
And waiting for
Something beautiful
Saturday, May 22, 2010
even in the dark you can still the light
Matt Maher - Hold Us Together
From the album Alive Again
It don't have a job, don't pay your bills
Won't buy you a home in Beverly Hills
Won't fix your life in five easy steps
Ain't the law of the land or the government?
But it's all you need
And love will hold us together
Make us a shelter to weather the storm
And I'll be my brother's keeper
So the whole world would know that we're not alone
It's waiting for you knocking at your door
In the moment of truth when your heart hits the floor
And you're on your knees
And love will hold us together
Make us a shelter to weather the storm
And I'll be my brother's keeper
So the whole world would know that we're not alone
This is the first day of the rest of your life
This is the first day of the rest of your life
'Cause even in the dark you can still see the light
It's gonna be alright, it's gonna be alright
This is the first day of the rest of your life
This is the first day of the rest of your life
'Cause even in the dark you can still see the light
It's gonna be alright, it's gonna be alright
Love will hold us together
Make us a shelter to weather the storm
And I'll be my brother's keeper
So the whole world would know that we're not alone
From the album Alive Again
It don't have a job, don't pay your bills
Won't buy you a home in Beverly Hills
Won't fix your life in five easy steps
Ain't the law of the land or the government?
But it's all you need
And love will hold us together
Make us a shelter to weather the storm
And I'll be my brother's keeper
So the whole world would know that we're not alone
It's waiting for you knocking at your door
In the moment of truth when your heart hits the floor
And you're on your knees
And love will hold us together
Make us a shelter to weather the storm
And I'll be my brother's keeper
So the whole world would know that we're not alone
This is the first day of the rest of your life
This is the first day of the rest of your life
'Cause even in the dark you can still see the light
It's gonna be alright, it's gonna be alright
This is the first day of the rest of your life
This is the first day of the rest of your life
'Cause even in the dark you can still see the light
It's gonna be alright, it's gonna be alright
Love will hold us together
Make us a shelter to weather the storm
And I'll be my brother's keeper
So the whole world would know that we're not alone
NEEDTOBREATHE - Something Beautiful
From the album The Outsiders
I feel the waves crashing on my feet
It's like I know where I need to be
I can't figure out
No, I can't figure out
Just how much air I will need to breathe When your wave crashes over me There's only one way to figure out Will you let me drown Will you let me drown
Hey now, this is my desire
Consume me like a fire
Cause I just want
Something beautiful to touch me
I know that I'm in reach
I am down on my knees
And waiting for
Something beautiful
And the water is rising quick
And for years I was scared of it
We can't be sure when it will subside
So I won't leave your side
No I can't leave your side
Hey now, this is my desire
Consume me like a fire
Cause I just want
Something beautiful to touch me
I know that I'm in reach
I am down on my knees
And waiting for
Something beautiful
From the album The Outsiders
I feel the waves crashing on my feet
It's like I know where I need to be
I can't figure out
No, I can't figure out
Just how much air I will need to breathe When your wave crashes over me There's only one way to figure out Will you let me drown Will you let me drown
Hey now, this is my desire
Consume me like a fire
Cause I just want
Something beautiful to touch me
I know that I'm in reach
I am down on my knees
And waiting for
Something beautiful
And the water is rising quick
And for years I was scared of it
We can't be sure when it will subside
So I won't leave your side
No I can't leave your side
Hey now, this is my desire
Consume me like a fire
Cause I just want
Something beautiful to touch me
I know that I'm in reach
I am down on my knees
And waiting for
Something beautiful
Matt Brouwer - I Shall Believe
From the album Unlearning
Come to me now
And lay Your hands over me
Will You find me tonight
Say it will be alright
And I will believe
Broken in two
And I know You're on to me
That I only come home
When I'm so all alone
But I do believe
(Chorus)
That not everything is gonna be
The way you think it ought to be
It seems like everytime I try and make it right
It all comes down on me
Please say honestly You won't give up on me
And I shall believe
I shall believe
Open the door
And show me Your face tonight
I know it's true
No one heals me like You
And You hold the key
Never again will I turn away from You
I'm so heavy tonight
But Your love is alright
And I do believe
That not everything is gonna be
The way you think it ought to be
It seems like everytime I try and make it right
It all comes down on me
Please say honestly You won't give up on me
And I shall believe
I shall believe
That not everything is gonna be
The way you think it ought to be
It seems like everytime I try and make it right
It all comes down on me
Please say honestly You won't give up on me
And I shall believe
I shall believe
I shall believe
I shall believe
From the album Unlearning
And lay Your hands over me
Will You find me tonight
Say it will be alright
And I will believe
Broken in two
And I know You're on to me
That I only come home
When I'm so all alone
But I do believe
(Chorus)
That not everything is gonna be
The way you think it ought to be
It seems like everytime I try and make it right
It all comes down on me
Please say honestly You won't give up on me
And I shall believe
I shall believe
Open the door
And show me Your face tonight
I know it's true
No one heals me like You
And You hold the key
Never again will I turn away from You
I'm so heavy tonight
But Your love is alright
And I do believe
That not everything is gonna be
The way you think it ought to be
It seems like everytime I try and make it right
It all comes down on me
Please say honestly You won't give up on me
And I shall believe
I shall believe
That not everything is gonna be
The way you think it ought to be
It seems like everytime I try and make it right
It all comes down on me
Please say honestly You won't give up on me
And I shall believe
I shall believe
I shall believe
I shall believe
Thursday, May 20, 2010
arms of my Shepherd
In the arms of my Shepherd...........
Oh no, You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no, You never let go
In every high and every low
Oh no, You never let go
Lord, You never let go of me
Matt Redman
Oh no, You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no, You never let go
In every high and every low
Oh no, You never let go
Lord, You never let go of me
Matt Redman
HOPE
HOPE !!
It is FAITH that gives me HOPE !
Once I CHOOSE HOPE anything is possible !
HOPE does not disappoint because the Love of God has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit that has been given to us....ME !!!! Romans 5:5
It is FAITH that gives me HOPE !
Once I CHOOSE HOPE anything is possible !
HOPE does not disappoint because the Love of God has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit that has been given to us....ME !!!! Romans 5:5
thats what FAITH can do !!!
Everybody falls sometimes
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes and make a new beginning
Anyone can feel the ache
You think it�s more than you can take
But you are stronger, stronger than you know
Don�t you give up now
The sun will soon be shining
You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining
I�ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn�t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I�ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That�s what faith can do
It doesn�t matter what you�ve heard
Impossible is not a word
It�s just a reason for someone not to try
Everybody�s scared to death
When they decide to take that step
Out on the water
It�ll be alright
Life is so much more
Than what your eyes are seeing
You will find your way
If you keep believing
I�ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn�t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I�ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That�s what faith can do
Overcome the odds
You do have a chance
(That�s what faith can do)
When the world says you can�t
It�ll tell you that you can!
I�ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn�t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I�ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That�s what faith can do
That's what faith can do!
Even if you fall sometimes
You will have the strength to rise
KUTLASS
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes and make a new beginning
Anyone can feel the ache
You think it�s more than you can take
But you are stronger, stronger than you know
Don�t you give up now
The sun will soon be shining
You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining
I�ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn�t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I�ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That�s what faith can do
It doesn�t matter what you�ve heard
Impossible is not a word
It�s just a reason for someone not to try
Everybody�s scared to death
When they decide to take that step
Out on the water
It�ll be alright
Life is so much more
Than what your eyes are seeing
You will find your way
If you keep believing
I�ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn�t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I�ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That�s what faith can do
Overcome the odds
You do have a chance
(That�s what faith can do)
When the world says you can�t
It�ll tell you that you can!
I�ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn�t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I�ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That�s what faith can do
That's what faith can do!
Even if you fall sometimes
You will have the strength to rise
KUTLASS
Such incredibly powerful words to comfort my soul all morning......
Matthew West - Save A Place For Me
Don't be mad if I cry
It just hurts so bad sometimes
'Cause everyday it's sinking in
And I have to say goodbye all over again
You know I bet it feels good to have the weight of this world off your shoulders now
I'm dreaming of the day when I'm finally there with you
Save a place for me
Save a place for me
I'll be there soon
I'll be there soon
Save a place for me
Save some grace for me
I'll be there soon
I'll be there soon
I have asked the question why
But I guess the answer's for another time
So instead I'll pray with every tear
And be thankful for the time I had you here
And I wanna live my life just like you did
Make the most of my time just like you did
And I wanna make my home up in the sky
Just like you did
Oh, but until I get there
Until I get there
Matthew West - Save A Place For Me
Don't be mad if I cry
It just hurts so bad sometimes
'Cause everyday it's sinking in
And I have to say goodbye all over again
You know I bet it feels good to have the weight of this world off your shoulders now
I'm dreaming of the day when I'm finally there with you
Save a place for me
Save a place for me
I'll be there soon
I'll be there soon
Save a place for me
Save some grace for me
I'll be there soon
I'll be there soon
I have asked the question why
But I guess the answer's for another time
So instead I'll pray with every tear
And be thankful for the time I had you here
And I wanna live my life just like you did
Make the most of my time just like you did
And I wanna make my home up in the sky
Just like you did
Oh, but until I get there
Until I get there
. . .only One can calm the storm inside our souls . . . You're Amazing !!!
Newsboys - In The Hands Of God
We have raised our hopes and our cities high
We have followed fragile dreams
But only One could take the measure of our goals
And we've stumbled over the trials of life
And we've wrestled the unseen
But only One can calm the storm inside our souls
In the hands of God we will fall
Rest for the restless, and the weary
Hope for the sinner
In the hands of God we stand tall
Hands that are mighty to deliver
Giving us freedom
When our strength gave way to the weight of guilt
'Til we strained for every breath
Only One could lift our shame and make us well
And when all is finished and we face
The fearsome power of death
Only One has overcome the gates of hell
You're amazing
You're amazing, You are
And we praise You, Lord
For what Your hands have done
We have raised our hopes and our cities high
We have followed fragile dreams
But only One could take the measure of our goals
And we've stumbled over the trials of life
And we've wrestled the unseen
But only One can calm the storm inside our souls
In the hands of God we will fall
Rest for the restless, and the weary
Hope for the sinner
In the hands of God we stand tall
Hands that are mighty to deliver
Giving us freedom
When our strength gave way to the weight of guilt
'Til we strained for every breath
Only One could lift our shame and make us well
And when all is finished and we face
The fearsome power of death
Only One has overcome the gates of hell
You're amazing
You're amazing, You are
And we praise You, Lord
For what Your hands have done
To the one who's dreams are falling all apart
And all you're left with is a tired and broken heart
I can tell by your eyes you think your on your own
but you're not all alone
Have you heard of the One who can calm the raging seas
Give sight to the blind, pull the lame up to their feet
With a love so strong He'll never let you go
oh you're not alone
Chorus:
You will be safe in His arms
You will be safe in His arms
'Cause the hands that hold the world are holding your heart
This is the promise He made
He will be with You always
When everything is falling apart
You will be safe in His arms
Verse 2:
Did you know that the voice that brings the dead to life
Is the very same voice that calls you to rise
So hear Him now He's calling you home
You will never be alone
Bridge:
These are the hands that built the mountains
the hands that calm the seas
These are the arms that hold the heavens
they are holding you and me
These are hands that healed the leper
Pulled the lame up to their feet
These are the arms that were nailed to a cross
to break our chains and set us free
Phil Wickham, Safe
And all you're left with is a tired and broken heart
I can tell by your eyes you think your on your own
but you're not all alone
Have you heard of the One who can calm the raging seas
Give sight to the blind, pull the lame up to their feet
With a love so strong He'll never let you go
oh you're not alone
Chorus:
You will be safe in His arms
You will be safe in His arms
'Cause the hands that hold the world are holding your heart
This is the promise He made
He will be with You always
When everything is falling apart
You will be safe in His arms
Verse 2:
Did you know that the voice that brings the dead to life
Is the very same voice that calls you to rise
So hear Him now He's calling you home
You will never be alone
Bridge:
These are the hands that built the mountains
the hands that calm the seas
These are the arms that hold the heavens
they are holding you and me
These are hands that healed the leper
Pulled the lame up to their feet
These are the arms that were nailed to a cross
to break our chains and set us free
Phil Wickham, Safe
Danni died yesterday in my arms.
She played with that bichon and since then she has been dizzy, staggering, fainting . . . .
Monday she passed out 7 times and hadn't eaten in 3 days .
The Vet said she had mild vascular heart disease and had lots of life in her for being 13 yrs old.
She died of a broken heart, missing Jordan.
They were with me through the thick and the thin of depression. . . my constant companions and a reason to live.
Now they run and play together at Jesus feet.....I truly believe dogs to heaven.
It was difficult to lay on the sofa without Danni curling at my feet, or to sleep last night without her at my side.
Kutu, Nutcracker, Jordan, Danni. You were always there for me and altho at times I was rough to live with, you were the best of friends, companions and always had unconditional love for me. Forever loved and always in my heart.
Maybe now Princess will become a cuddling old cat instead of a hidden withdrawn kitty.
She played with that bichon and since then she has been dizzy, staggering, fainting . . . .
Monday she passed out 7 times and hadn't eaten in 3 days .
The Vet said she had mild vascular heart disease and had lots of life in her for being 13 yrs old.
She died of a broken heart, missing Jordan.
They were with me through the thick and the thin of depression. . . my constant companions and a reason to live.
Now they run and play together at Jesus feet.....I truly believe dogs to heaven.
It was difficult to lay on the sofa without Danni curling at my feet, or to sleep last night without her at my side.
Kutu, Nutcracker, Jordan, Danni. You were always there for me and altho at times I was rough to live with, you were the best of friends, companions and always had unconditional love for me. Forever loved and always in my heart.
Maybe now Princess will become a cuddling old cat instead of a hidden withdrawn kitty.
Friday, May 14, 2010
totally frustrated.....then
MARK SCHULTZ
Well, I know this life is filled with sorrow
And there are days when the pain just lasts and lasts
But I know there will come a day
When all our tears are washed away with a break in the clouds
His glory coming down and in that moment
Every knee shall bow, every tongue confess
That God is love and love has come for us all
Every heart set free, every one will see
That God is love and love has come for us all
For anybody who has ever lost a loved one
And you feel like you had to let go too soon
I know it hurts to say goodbye
But don't you know it's just a matter of time till the tears are gonna end
You'll see them once again and in that moment
Every knee shall bow, every tongue confess
That God is love and love has come for us all
Every heart set free, every one will see
That God is love and love has come for us all
Oh, and on that day we will stand amazed
At our Savior, God and King
Just to see the face of amazing grace
As our hearts rise up and sing
Glory, glory, hallelujah
Thank You for the cross
Singing glory, glory, hallelujah
Christ has paid the cost
Glory, glory, hallelujah
Thank You for the cross
Singing glory, glory
Christ has paid the cost
And every knee shall bow, every tongue confess
That God is love and love has come for us all
Every heart set free, every one will see
That God is love and love has come for us all
Love has come for us all
Love has come for us all
And every knee shall bow, every tongue confess
God is love and love has come for us all
Every heart set free, every one will see
God is love and love has come for us all
Every knee shall bow, every tongue confess
God is love and love has come for us all
Every heart set free, every one will see
God is love and love has come for us all
Well, I know this life is filled with sorrow
And there are days when the pain just lasts and lasts
But I know there will come a day
When all our tears are washed away with a break in the clouds
His glory coming down and in that moment
Every knee shall bow, every tongue confess
That God is love and love has come for us all
Every heart set free, every one will see
That God is love and love has come for us all
For anybody who has ever lost a loved one
And you feel like you had to let go too soon
I know it hurts to say goodbye
But don't you know it's just a matter of time till the tears are gonna end
You'll see them once again and in that moment
Every knee shall bow, every tongue confess
That God is love and love has come for us all
Every heart set free, every one will see
That God is love and love has come for us all
Oh, and on that day we will stand amazed
At our Savior, God and King
Just to see the face of amazing grace
As our hearts rise up and sing
Glory, glory, hallelujah
Thank You for the cross
Singing glory, glory, hallelujah
Christ has paid the cost
Glory, glory, hallelujah
Thank You for the cross
Singing glory, glory
Christ has paid the cost
And every knee shall bow, every tongue confess
That God is love and love has come for us all
Every heart set free, every one will see
That God is love and love has come for us all
Love has come for us all
Love has come for us all
And every knee shall bow, every tongue confess
God is love and love has come for us all
Every heart set free, every one will see
God is love and love has come for us all
Every knee shall bow, every tongue confess
God is love and love has come for us all
Every heart set free, every one will see
God is love and love has come for us all
Sunday, May 2, 2010
His eye is on the sparrow
I am so happy with my garden!! In just one year of transplanting, tendering, weeding and thinning I have all I could ask for in just one year !!
What are they? Nasturtiums, lilies of the valley, lilacs, jonquils, daffodils, columbines, jack-in-the-pulpit (I transferred one bulb from the woods last spring and now have 4!), forget-me-nots, tulips, wood violets, wild geraniums, robins eggs, finches at the feeder, African daisy, pansies, bachelor buttons, alliums, irises...all in my garden.
The rain feeds my beautiful friends at night and the sunshine's gloriously on them during the day.
It seems as if each night the maple thrusts out bigger foliage to bring shade and hiding spaces for the new baby robins to feed and grow.
I sing because I’m happy,
I sing because I’m free,
For His eye is on the sparrow,
And I know He watches me.
I sing because I’m free,
For His eye is on the sparrow,
And I know He watches me.
Saturday, May 1, 2010
Let Me Be
Lord, You are the maker of my heart
the framer and reshaper of my soul
Master and creator, healer and sustainer
I will put my trust in You alone
the framer and reshaper of my soul
Master and creator, healer and sustainer
I will put my trust in You alone
Teach me to be faithful to confess
in this way my spirit will be blessed
though my sins are daily, You have love me greatly
removing them as far as east from west
in this way my spirit will be blessed
though my sins are daily, You have love me greatly
removing them as far as east from west
Let me be open, let me be humble
let me find the joy of my salvation in your cross
let me be broken whenever I stumble
let me remember the great mercy of my God
let me find the joy of my salvation in your cross
let me be broken whenever I stumble
let me remember the great mercy of my God
And give me the full measure of Your grace
as it is reflected in the Word
faith and reassurance, mercy and endurance
carry these to those who haven't heard
as it is reflected in the Word
faith and reassurance, mercy and endurance
carry these to those who haven't heard
So let me be open, let me be humble
let me find the joy of my salvation in Your cross
let me be broken whenever I stumble
let me remember the great mercy of my God
let me find the joy of my salvation in Your cross
let me be broken whenever I stumble
let me remember the great mercy of my God
All I have needed is laid at Your table
all my achievements, I lay at your feet
alive in your spirit, I'm willing and able
You make my joy complete
all my achievements, I lay at your feet
alive in your spirit, I'm willing and able
You make my joy complete
Let me be open, let me be humble
let me find the joy of my salvation in Your cross
let me be broken whenever I stumble
let me remember the great mercy
let me find the joy of my salvation in Your cross
let me be broken whenever I stumble
let me remember the great mercy
make my joy complete
Caedmons Call : Let Me Be ~~Senseman, Aaron
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