I will be seeing Sheri shortly and I am so sad I cannot believe it....I just want to be in a ball under the sheets and cry.  I asked Gracie a favor, to come take care of mum if I should go see Matt.... I would spend time teaching her and this was her reply:

I really would love to spend time with Mom!

You have asked me for a favor.  At this point in our relationship, I don’t feel I owe you any favors. I choose Not have 'personal' contact with you. This past year was rough, and I choose not to go there again, it would be best for me if you weren’t there.

 

So this is my proposal;

I would love to spend a week with Mom,

I have no medical training, but I can care to regular daily items. I am sure medical professional care could be arranged for this time frame accordingly with Medicare and BCBS. Mom’s Dr.’s should be able to help here.

 You would take your time off, and the professional company or visiting nurse, would be able to show me how I can/will help Mom.

 

The time frame that works best for us as a working couple, is from February 20^th till March 11th. This gives you three weeks to choose from.

 

If you would send me the information and confirmation of the company you will use, plus your travel confirmation by January 7th.

-a full two weeks- then we also can make our arrangements in a timely manner.

 

Please take your time off, I would love to spend time with Mom.

...me

Apparently she told mum on the phone what she was telling me in email.
I was angry with only one part...she wants nothing to do with me.  She cannot even forgive for the sake of mum.  Mom on the other hand had nothing to say about the "daughters"....silence.  She wouldn't even speak freely on the phone cause I was there.  She has no idea what she speaks about in regards Medicare and Anthem smart value.  Ignorant piece of shit.  It took Yolanda to say to me obviously she is no one you have to have in your life to worry about...you are doing a good job with mum.

Back to where I started, no one to take careof mum so I can have a time to myself...more than a day or half a day and even then I am running errands pertaining to mum.

I would LOVE a day to go to the nail place and get a manicure/pedicure...that would be me time.  Has not happened yet.  Today will take my tears to Sheri.

I feel like God is slapping me in the face and saying something.....why?  What have I done to deserve this from Grace and my family in general?