Father God, I am just raging inside of me !  First of all I have had no sleep just naps, with much half consciousness, for 2 days.  I feel like a fucking zombie.  WTF Lord ???

Then I let myself be vulnerable, hoping against all odds that one of them men I have emailed will truly take an interest.

YOU DO NOT WANT TO GIVE ME MY HEARTS DESIRE !!  YOU SUCK !!!

Yes that is how i feel right now and you know it anyway . . . . jus let me cry and why dont you just send a huge sign from heaven telling everyone THIS WOMAN IS NOT MEANT TO BE IN LOVE no matter how capable of love i have made her !!  I AM PUNISHING HER FOR ALL THE WRONG SHE HAS DONE BY DENYING HER HER HEARTS DESIRE.

i am so mad at you for leaving me like this in 2012.   what a fucking low blow !!!

those men on CHRISTIAN mingle are just as fucking clueless as men on CM are . . .. taunt an old woman.
men are fucking assholes