There are so many formalities with World Vision in Zimbabwe to enable me to see this child Rufaro. I feel at a lack of hope at this point. WV-USA office knows that this is only part of the reason I wish to visit Zimbabwe. The time I stay in Zimbabwe is greatly determined by seeing this child. She is not my entire focus.
When I initially went into Zim from S Africa, when I first arrived, Judy Parker and I were detained at the border for 8hours. We were searched, interegated together and seperately . . . . I stood firm in my hope and faith. . . . .although extremely frightened. Having "huge" guns pointed at me and ordered about at the point of them was frightening to say the least. In many ways, I feel a much milder form of this and my hope is fading. My hope is not only fading to see this child but also of even having the opportunity to go "home."
When I moved in to live with my mother, I purchased a wall hanging. There was particular reason for the purchase but over the years with my mum and now alone, I do feel it acutely..... the saying is "home is where your story begins." "My" story began in Tanzania, in Mwanza and Shinyanga; with my parents. I committed to taking care of my parents, the ones who raisied me in a Godly home, and as a missionary kid. Once again I have a chance to visit near where my story began, a place I still consider home.
The Lord knows how long I have longed and desired this return to the beginning of my story. A friend seriously asked me, "will you return?" As in to the States. I laughed some but I would love to stay forever, until I see the Lord.
I want, wish, desire to visit with all those who left a footprint in my life.
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