I had a complete meltdown on Wed...not just mom, but in regards to Tim.
Sheri tells me I give so much emotionally to both and get nothing in return....I have nothing left to give anyone and I meltdown. 

She asks me if I journal, well no ~~~~ its too frikkin painful at the time.

Just like my last session with her.  I wanted to turn off the pain, she allowed it but before I could, she asked what I felt like at that specific time..."hopeless", I responded.

Hopeless to get anything from mom and hopeless that I might share more of a relationship with Tim.