Psalm 23: 2

The Lord IS my Shepherd.....this is present tense

He MAKES me lie down in green pastures . . ..... present tense

Shepherd, last night you did make me literally lie down when it came to the overwhelming panic and anxiety over read Chrissy's email.  It was like I was wanting to do something about it and you literally shut me off and took the rug out from under me.

You know that sometimes I just do NOT listen and I talk over you so that you cannot be heard.  I so do not want this happen...it is not my intentions and motives but you know and I know deep in my heart, I will not learn these lessons over nite, unless you make them happen....so I continue to ask for your grace, mercy and kindness in MAKING me lie down...... that I literally must be broken and lying in green pastures, for you to work my business.

The pastures are green because you care.  You love and are truly attached to my weaknes and feelings....you could give sand or rocks or no rivers at all...yet as you sit and keep watch, you want me knowing that you are comprehending my tears, my fears, my anxiety, and do know within yourself...so provide green passtures.

I never thought of it that way before.  
Maybe I should find a Max Lucado or someone else's book on Psalm 23.

Already I am exhausted from tears.  Yes and fears.