we sin in ways that proves our worth to ourselves

I think it was a Jason Gray interview when I first heard that statement and it has stayed with me

I know Sheri would definitely agree and ask me about Matt....

Having Matt and his desires of me does give me worth.  I suppose to many in a sick way, ugly and disgusting but it is who i am deep inside.  Maybe because of how I grew up, the nurturing I lacked, am not sure.....