I am in despair over Mark ignoring me..... it is annoying, belittling, frustrating . . . .
and he does mean something to me . . . .  I am a fool if it has all been a lie.


I long to be a different kind of person...but no matter how I try, I fail.
My goodness isnt consistent
my will power isnt strong enough
At best, I am frustrated; at worst, despairing.