I wrote:
> Esther Betts is falling and I need God's strength and wisdom.
> Mom has Lewy Body Dementia, a combination of Alzheimer's, Parkinson's and
> all sorts of hallucinations. She also has many other severe medical
> issues.
> I have promised to care for her, at home, till she dies.
> I have been her constant caretaker since May of 09 and it is harder now
> more than ever.
> I cried my soul out to God holding mom's hands tonight asking him to be
> merciful and give both of us strength.
>
> Late last year, not knowing God's plan for mum, I asked her what would she
> like to do that she would like to do before she never has the chance. "Go
> on a cruise." At that time it all looked possible. So I placed our
> cruise with Max Lucado and Micheal W Smith July 11.
>
> Mom is in no condition to go, that I can fore see, at this point, and I
> NEED God's strenth to make a decision....which one? I do not know.
> In one of her more lucid moments, she said I must go on the cruise with
> her best friend, it is what she would like, but that is putting mom in
> respite and I will never forgive myself if she dies while I am gone,
> knowing this cruise was placed for HER.
>
> I have not worked this whole time and my unemployed is finished.
> Financially I have nothing. I lost my home to foreclosure when I moved in
> with mom.
>
> I am in no way as needy as many are..... my heart is opened and poured out
> for the World Vision kids I sponser, the needs of the totally hopeless,
> others have greater hardship and I feel no right to ask for any prayer at
> all.....I never share things so intimate but with mom I have no place to
> go but run into the arms of my loving Shepherd and as I opened email......
> my Lord said "share."
> graciously, ElLois Betts
>
They wrote:
Thank you for writing to the Haven Prayer Team. We care about you and
your request -- but more importantly God cares and He is listening to us
right now.

"Because he turned his ear to me, I will call on him as long as I live"
(Psalm 116:2).

What a wonderful reality for us to take into our hearts! Every time we
pray, the Lord is listening. He's lending us His ear, granting us His full
attention. He's poised to answer us whenever we call. We can be like
little children and talk to Him with uncomplicated simplicity about
anything we have on our hearts. We don't have to know how to pray, as if
prayer were some sort of skill we need to master. (Janet Morris, ANCHOR
5/16/19)

Let's pray together!

Dear Lord,
Thank you for listening to us today! Thank you that, because of Jesus'
life and death, we come to You as your children. Please work in ElLois and
Esther's life in a loving, amazing, powerful way. They need strength and
wisdom in making decisions. Provide for them financially. We are trusting
you. Please pour out your grace and mercy - and fill them with joy, peace
and love today. In the strong and powerful name of Jesus, Amen.

I hope you'll keep listening to Haven Today on your local radio station or
the internet at http://www.haventoday.org. You can listen to Charles
Morris anytime day or night by going to that website. Now you can even
request that the program be emailed to you each day.

I also want to encourage you to read Haven's daily devotional called
"Anchor" at http://www.haventoday.org/anchor.php. You can request the
booklet version or the email version.

Please keep in touch - and let us know how God answers our prayers!

Looking to Jesus,

Haven Prayer Team

core relationships

Becky wrote:
Some people on my team are growing in different directions, but that doesn't mean we can't stay together as a core, we can't afford to loose the base friendships that we've had for so long. Life is too short for anger and grudges. We have to apreciate people in our lives for who they are and the qualitiy they bring to us!

I wrote:
We have to apreciate people in our lives for who they are and the qualitiy they bring to us!

We begin by learning to accept our family, loving them for who they are and not wanting them to be something they are not.
Then it is easier through out our lives as we expand friendships and relationships.
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ah yes, much more to say on this subject, maybe a "note" at some point.

Makios Phiri June 17 at 6:52am (I believe the minister of Kutenda EC)
By trying, you may fail others. By not, you fail yourself and you may never realize your full potential in the Kingdom of God.
Keep on trying.
You are in our prayers



Masakati,
The Lord only asks us to give our best. He knows the consequences if we fail and provides or disciplines.
I have failed much in my life, so much to regret related to disobedience to God.
But determination and will made be pick myself up and begin again.
I have failed others and God has punished/disciplined me.
I want to relize my totally full potential in the Kingdom of God...I desire it so. I will keep on trying.
My prayers as well.

I woke at 2am to take mom's BS cause it has been crazy and she was cold and
not breathing.
I shook her and she took a deep breath and I cried and held her telling her
I thought she had died. She told me "I love you" so I slept with her cause
I was so afraid she'd die.
But I want her to die. She does not need to live like this !! Why God ??
!!!!

deareast Shepherd,
she is ready
she is nigh

why do You linger?

cinderelli

there once was a woman, who lived in her anger,
she beat one son and scolded the other
the daughter she domestically slaved till she was bitter
the beaten son, laid on the slave
there once was a woman who looked the other way.

there once was an old woman who no one would care for
she ordered the slave even though she was married
till the slave found herself repeating the mother

there is an old woman who has 5 children
the husband tragically died,
she is now alone in her anger and quilt
the woman is bitter and old, dementia sets in
eating her mind and her heart, evil becometh

the son she ignored comes to visit out of lost love
the daughter is two faced and pretends to care
the youngest daughter is far away and shares
her toys with the woman for tis all they have in common

the youngest son really wants to care, to visit and help
but far away he lives, taking care of his own

now there is one daughter, let’s call her cinderelli
she toils in sadness that her hope is complete
all she wanted to do was to please this old woman

she was beaten, only trying to be good
one day finally taking her stand
never wanting to marry for she feared she would repeat
each old woman's selfish bad habits
cinderelli toils this old woman in health
a maid, a cook, laundress; self imposed caretaker
till the old woman passes

cinderelli many days counts the cost, her loss and her blessings
a submissive to the heart and very soul of her being
maybe a door mat, yet strong and determined
the old woman will not walk upon her
many times weeping the emotional pain cleansed

her friends are her treasure, acquaintance not
they remind her one day cinderelli will be gone
the wicked witch of the east, the one in the west
will be silenced forever, cinderelli is freed

An unexamined life is not worth living
~~Socrates

Mom and I were sitting here...silent 

and I said, 

isn't it lonely without Danni?  

I cried so hard. 

Mum said yes.  

I can remember when she didn't want 

Jordan or Danni and now she is lonely as I am for them