O spread the tidings ’round, wherever man is found,
Wherever human hearts and human woes abound;
Let ev’ry Christian tongue proclaim the joyful sound:
The Comforter has come!

The Comforter has come, the Comforter has come!
The Holy Ghost from Heav’n, the Father’s promise giv’n;
O spread the tidings ’round, wherever man is found—
The Comforter has come!
Comforter has come!

Lo, the great King of kings, with healing in His wings,
To ev’ry captive soul a full deliverance brings;
And through the vacant cells the song of triumph rings;
The Comforter has come!

The Comforter has come, the Comforter has come!
The Holy Ghost from Heav’n, the Father’s promise giv’n;
O spread the tidings ’round, wherever man is found—
The Comforter has come!

O boundless love divine! How shall this tongue of mine
To wond’ring mortals tell the matchless grace divine—
That I, a child of hell, should in His image shine!
The Comforter has come!

The Comforter has come, the Comforter has come!
The Holy Ghost from Heav’n, the Father’s promise giv’n;
O spread the tidings ’round, wherever man is found—
The Comforter has come!

Lyrics: Frank Bottome, 1890.   Composer: William Kirkpatrick.

I’ve been living out of sanity
I’ve been splitting hairs and blurring lines
I am a house that is divided
In my heart and in my mind

I use one hand to pull closer
The other to push you away
If I had two hands doing the same thing
Lifted high, lifted high

I have a broken disposition
I’m a liar who thirsts for the truth
And while I ache for faith to hold me
I need to feel the scars and see the proof

And if we just keep digging we can reach the foundation
Of our souls
And if we just keep cutting all the chains from our hearts
We’ll lose control

And it feels like giving in
It feels like starting over
It feels like waking up, and you know it’s coming
It feels like a brand new day
Open your eyes

I feel like this song today....with my soul and spirit in total turmoil.

...crashing, smashing........again and again
I don't seem to be able to focus on anthing particular cause everything is so blurred......
the things I need to do
the emails sent and waiting for responses
mom and her episodes which indicate decline
my own worsening heart and no one in which to tell and cry because I know I will go the way mom has.
So terrifying to me !!

Steve and Heidi

Only God has his plans for us and surely knows them !!

Sunday Steven went to church, Bapt in Howell, and he sat down only to open his bulletin and the message was about committment to marriage.  He said he cried through the service and into the pastors office for an hour.

He spent time with Heidi at Salem.  Amelia would NOT forgive him and stayed home on Monday.

When Steve called, he said that his committment is to his marriage not to Misty.  He is obeying God and I hope Heidi learns from this

There's no such thing as perfect people. No such thing as a perfect life so come as you are broken and scared. lift up your heart. and be amazed and be changed by a perfect God.

Steven called last night, he's had an affair for 4 months.  I am not surprised.  I so know what his pain is like and the questions he needs to find answers to.

Dearest Shepherd,
Please do not allow Amelia to feel abandoned by her dad.  He did not abandon her but his wife.  You know that I knew something was always wrong in their marriage bed, but Heidi will not follow your guidelines for marriage and yes, I do hate her for not loving her husband the way you planned marriage before the creation of mankind. She has always refused.  Steve laid out the reality of his situation and I was not at all surprised, I support him.  Heidi can beg all she wants, she needs first to realize she was wrong and make Biblical corrections.  How I wish I could sit down with her and tell her how to really love a man, her man.

I must not forget Misty and her beauty and ask that you will wrap your arms around her as well.
Speak to her husbands heart and soul.

Only you, my Shepherd will make this situation work out for YOUR glory, not the passions of imperfect but loving people.

Your little lamb who sits at your feet.



I won't pretend to know what you're thinking
I can't begin to know what you're going through
I won't deny the pain that you're feeling
But I'm gonna try and give a little hope to you

Just remember what I've told you
There's so much you're living for

[Chorus]
There's a light at the end of this tunnel
There's a light at the end of this tunnel
For you, for you
There's a light at the end of this tunnel
Shinin' bright at the end of this tunnel
For you, for you

So keep holdin' on

You've got your disappointments and sorrows
You ought to share the weight of that load with me
Then you will find that the light of tomorrow
It brings a new life for your eyes to see

So remember what I've told you
There's so much you're living for
[Chorus]
So keep holdin' on
Keep holding on

So remember what I've told you
There's so much you're living for
[Chorus] x2
There's a light at the end of this tunnel
For you, for you
Shinin' bright at the end of this tunnel
For you, for you
So keep holdin' on
Keep holding on
Keep holding on, now.

You've got your disappointments and sorrows
But I'm gonna try and give a little hope to you

I FEEL lost....somewhere between sunshine and responsibility.

Some where at twilight ... lost between night and day.

Will I find you waiting for me Shepherd?

hold me?  I just need to be hugged
for I want to bury my head deep inside your arms and cry......
hold my heart?
i feel it breaking
hold my hand?
i cannot walk alone

"Faith is taking the first step, even when you don't see the whole staircase."

So many things to think about today !!