Steve Betts <stevenbetts1031@gmail.com>	Jul 31
to me, ElLois

ElLois...

I tried calling you several times over the past few days, but I get a message that your phone is unreachable.  Possibly I have an old number or the wrong number all together.  So, I am attempting to email you instead--hopefully one of these email addresses is still active.

ElLois, I want to apologize for getting upset with/mad at you in February of last year and completely avoiding you for over a year. I have hurt you and I am wrong for doing that.  How I have been treating you is not right--it not how family members should treat each other.  I am sure you feel abandoned and neglected; a cast out.  That is so wrong on my part and I am very sorry for my actions.  I told mom, before she died, she didn't need to worry about you anymore and she could go home to be with dad; I would take care of you.  I have NOT been faithful to my words to mom and I desire to right that ship!

Please accept my apology, it is truly heart-felt and from a humble heart.  I desire to restore our relationship.  If you do receive this email, please let me know--reply, call, or text.  I really want to talk with you and find out how you are doing.

ElLois, deep down, I really do care a lot about you.  If it weren't for you, I would still be wetting the bed--remember sleeping on the living room floor with me to help me stop wetting the bed?  I have never forgot that!!!

I love you Lo.  I look forward to hearing from you.

I thought I had posted this letter from Steve...but I hadn't......
My most immediate response to him was....

ElLois Betts <ellois.b@gmail.com>	Jul 31
to Steve

Golly....I am sobbing.  

You probably have the wrong phone number as my phone was cut off and I had a pay as you go number.

Why come to me now??  Not that I am a refusing your apology.

You will need to gain my trust again, despite what you promised mum.

Yes, I do remember being there for you and I even remember scolding Don for neglecting you while I was at Moody.

Abandoned, rejected and dying alone have been the worst fears of my life.  I was not looking forward to dying alone, but yes I have felt taken to the trash heap long ago and buried over the last year, without an ounce of care. 

I sent it to Sheri and she responded:

sheri mccallister	Jul 31
to me

Wow!  What a heart change.  Your loving, tender Shepherd spoke to him on your behalf.  And he listened, that's the miracle.  I know Steven really, really hurt you, but you need to receive this from him.  That does not mean that your hurt doesn't get acknowledged and dealt with, it just means that you start repairing the rupture with him.  Accept his apology and ask him to hear you out, if that is what you need.  He seems to have seen the hurt and devastation that he has caused you.  Let this be the beginning of repairing his relationship with you.  Take small steps in that direction....Sheri

I then wrote Steve:
Oh darn, I somehow erased/deleted it.......

I wrote the entry on Aug 23.......