. . . shamed . . .

I felt criticized by Tim and then shame ...

for something in a dream I had...my ability to shape up undisciplined kids, whose nanny (sort of) I was.

I was hurt...very much so.  I felt shamed and inadequate to be a "gf" let alone someone loveable or able to do anything but be controlled by how others felt about me.  

So I called him back and he told me he didn't mean to have me feel that way.   It's just that if a person isn't trained by age 5 or 6 "it ain't gonna happen."   While I realize this...it was a dream.

A dream where the out come was one where the man cared for me.....very differently than Tim.
See other blog for dream.