Our world is looking for love. As human beings, we need to love and be loved. But we're looking in all the wrong places. We look for it from a parent,
from a child,
from a spouse,
from a friend,
But our parents grow old and die,
our children grow up and live their own lives,
our spouses are too busy or too tired,
our friends are superficial or selfish.
Who can truly understand the need of the human heart? Who can meet the need of our hearts? Where is love found?
Love is found in the heart of God.
We love Him because He first loved us.
1 John 4:19, NKJV
Mary just texted me saying "Let the earth and all that is in it Praise the Lord. BLESS THE LORD OH MY SOUL. All my being bless His most Holy name."
She does seem to live in the "perfect present."
I just never want Mary to think that her good deeds and her words will get her to heaven.
I truly believe she is another lamb. . . . in my heart, deep in my soul as I wrote that, I know she is.
How so many can draw wrong conclusions regarding the whole sweep of Catholics is beyond me.
Personally, God knows how judgmental I am towards others and how prejudice I am.
Once again, I draw wrong conclusions.
During my trials of doubt and obsessive guilt in the valley of despair, God proved Himself to me so often, yes I still lacked belief, faith and trust. He sheltered and carried me, yet I seemed always to see the mountain of crap instead of the love and care, the presence and comfort. I even missed so often the fact that no matter what He felt what I felt and had the same emotions, yet He was the comforter (came along side) if only I had rested. Instead I fought.
And now I still fight for will power, motivation, some special energy to do waht I must with what I know is a must. Organize present finances and calender, clean the kitchen, do laundry and sort tax stuff, preparing it for Bass, as soon as possible. ALL I HAVE TO DO IS DO IT!!
Talked with Cheryl. Larry is being selfish again and visiting a friend in FL by himself (when they could go to NY) and she has been free this week. . . . she never told me.
But we are going to dinner tonight . . . Red Lobster! WOW ! A VERY special treat for me.
Texted Alley to see if she working, if so will ask for her table and leave a $10 tip (base). She told me last time that 20% is the going tip rate. I did not know that.
She does seem to live in the "perfect present."
I just never want Mary to think that her good deeds and her words will get her to heaven.
I truly believe she is another lamb. . . . in my heart, deep in my soul as I wrote that, I know she is.
How so many can draw wrong conclusions regarding the whole sweep of Catholics is beyond me.
Personally, God knows how judgmental I am towards others and how prejudice I am.
Once again, I draw wrong conclusions.
During my trials of doubt and obsessive guilt in the valley of despair, God proved Himself to me so often, yes I still lacked belief, faith and trust. He sheltered and carried me, yet I seemed always to see the mountain of crap instead of the love and care, the presence and comfort. I even missed so often the fact that no matter what He felt what I felt and had the same emotions, yet He was the comforter (came along side) if only I had rested. Instead I fought.
And now I still fight for will power, motivation, some special energy to do waht I must with what I know is a must. Organize present finances and calender, clean the kitchen, do laundry and sort tax stuff, preparing it for Bass, as soon as possible. ALL I HAVE TO DO IS DO IT!!
Talked with Cheryl. Larry is being selfish again and visiting a friend in FL by himself (when they could go to NY) and she has been free this week. . . . she never told me.
But we are going to dinner tonight . . . Red Lobster! WOW ! A VERY special treat for me.
Texted Alley to see if she working, if so will ask for her table and leave a $10 tip (base). She told me last time that 20% is the going tip rate. I did not know that.
I also applied for several care.com jobs . . . . time to be busy. My commitment to Alley still stands.
Lord I want to be a blessing with each job I have.....please allow me to be such.
Now on to Mark. I have not heard from him since the 16th which seems like days ago. An Eternity. But I continue to share. I want to share Jesus with him as well. I know he goes to church but what kind and his beliefs? I have no idea. he doesnt tell me much about himself. Most men dont.
Lord I want to be a blessing with each job I have.....please allow me to be such.
Now on to Mark. I have not heard from him since the 16th which seems like days ago. An Eternity. But I continue to share. I want to share Jesus with him as well. I know he goes to church but what kind and his beliefs? I have no idea. he doesnt tell me much about himself. Most men dont.
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