Am sitting here with the ipod on, writing Matt before it leaves my brain and F. Ortega comes on, NIGHT OF YOUR RETURN, and i cry for mum....to see her and dad....and how peacefully mom went and how I miss her.....  She is happy and strong and beautiful and i want her back...how selfish of me..... maybe this is the night of my Shepherd's return for me . . .  i wouldnt have to go through all this stuff about a job, all the debts to pay . . .  but I have a feeling He'd wait till I could declare bankruptcy so Steven and Don didn't get the stuff thrown at them.

Am going to change my beneficiary to Stephanie and my POA to Stephanie; medical and financial (along with her Matt).

If serious things happen between me and my Matt...then it will be him with Steph medical POA.

I could play this song all day long.  Will get the words when in WiFi.

I want to read TRAVELING LIGHT.  The burden of weariness before I go to bed....

I am struggling with smoking . . . please Shepherd this is a burden for me ~  I beg take it away !!

Jesus does not protect those He loves from bad things happening but uses bad things to fulfill His greater plan. He is glad, not that we suffer, but that we have the opportunity to grow in our faith and display His glory, which is the fulfillment of the very purpose for our existence. Don't settle for less than more!

What is Jesus calling us into? No matter what it is, or what fearful storm it is wrapped in, remember when Jesus says "come," He will always be watching and holding us up. Knowing that, are you ready to grow? Then step out of the boat and come to Him! 


all of our righteousness, including the very best things we ever do, are so permeated with sin and selfishness that they are like filthy rags in God's sight 
(Isa. 64:6). But at the Cross, Jesus gave us His perfect, spotless robe of righteousness and took our filthy garments of sin in exchange (Phil. 3:9). On Judgment Day, you and I will be dressed in His righteousness before God because He wore the filthy garments of our sin. We will be clothed because He was stripped!

Yes I will rise

Out of these ashes rise

From this trouble I have found

And this rubble on the ground

I will rise

Cause He Who is in YOU

Is greater than you will ever be

And You will riseI love the lyrics from Shawn McDonald’s song, "Rise."

Glorious Day

Casting Crowns

from the album Until The Whole World Hears

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One day when Heaven was filled with His praises
One day when sin was as black as could be
Jesus came forth to be born of a virgin
Dwelt among men, my example is He
Word became flesh and the light shined among us
His glory revealed

(Chorus)
Living, He loved me
Dying, He saved me
Buried, He carried my sins far away
Rising, He justified freely forever
One day He's coming
Oh glorious day, oh glorious day

One day they led Him up Calvary's mountain
One day they nailed Him to die on a tree
Suffering anguish, despised and rejected
Bearing our sins, my Redeemer is He
Hands that healed nations, stretched out on a tree
And took the nails for me

Chorus

One day the grave could conceal Him no longer
One day the stone rolled away from the door
Then He arose over death He had conquered
Now He's ascended, my Lord evermore
Death could not hold Him, the grave could not keep Him
From rising again

Chorus

One day the trumpet will sound for His coming
One day the skies with His glories will shine
Wonderful day, my Beloved One, bringing
My Savior, Jesus, is mine

White Flag

Chris Tomlin

from the album Passion: White Flag

The battle rages on
As storm and tempest roar
We cannot win this fight
Inside our rebel hearts
We're laying down our weapons now

We raise our white flag
We surrender
All to You
All for You

We raise our white flag
The war is over
Love has come
Your love has won

Here on this Holy ground
You made a way for peace
Laying your body down
You took our rightful place
This freedom song is marching on

We lift the cross
Lift it high lift it high

ElLois,  I hear your agony.  I so wish I could help.  I think about you often and pray for you even more.  God is with you.  He knows what is happening and why.  Cling to Him.  Cling. Cling. Cling!  That is all you can do right now.  He promises that He will take care of us, be with us, meet our needs and that we can rely on Him.  Ask Jesus to show you where He is with you right now.  He is the only way that you will survive this.  I've been keeping my ears open for any jobs that I find out about that I could tell you about.  God knows.  God cares.  God cries with you.  You are so precious to Him.  He hasn't left you......Sheri

I will rise from these ashes
greater is He who is in me

i lay down my hopes and die
the struggle is too hard,

all I face is nays and no one wants an old lady, a crippled one, and an old nurse, a fatso

I am so depserately ripped apart with the need for a job and the nays and failure I have had in securing ANY job.
ANY !!  oh why??

the lowliest job . . . cashier and no one will take me

what do I have to do? scream? hey you, you have a job and I am  desperate and need to pay bills

they cant even call cause I have no phone

oh God it hurts to know that i am useless to anyone and everyone at this point, really useless...phycially I might be able to perform, emotionally I am shattered . . . mentally, I know what I need yet cannot find it for the life of me....what life I do have

does it show in my writing and in my face that I am a lousy employee?

who would miss me?  I am a part of no one's life.  That is just a fact.

Ive inruded into Cheryl's, like leech in the river sucked up to her and she cant free herself of me at this point cuase she allowed my intrusion. . .  i'd want me gone too

Stephy and Zach might care.

Elizabeth barely knows me anymore...she remembers her hats more than she remembers my name

But Steve, Don Bec and Grace?  Who's she?  who died?  They dont even know me and would only want the money from mum's stuff and her house.   Just money, they dont want to have anything to do with me.  Not even Ben and AF...they could give arats ass too.

As for Matt, there are other fish in the sea prettier, more humble and able to give him waht he needs.  He hasnt needed me thus far, so come and get me, why now. . .  what ever for?

Oh God what should I do....I cant even call Sheri.

Oh God why do I need to keep suffering....  my Shepherd I am over here about to fall into this abyss....please come get me, I beg of you please come get me

i dont want to die....i dont....i just need to feel like I have something worth while doing in this life...and I am doing nothing...not even paying bills.....

I feel like I am being erased, there is chaos, shame, pain and I am worthless

deasrest Shepherd,

I am having those those of regret and despair that I could have done this, I should have done that....in regards to mum and I cry out to her cause i feel as if i need her so....just as my companion, her friendship and closeness......

I miss her as if she passed away last week and it is 10 months now.  It all seems unbelievable and surreal. . . .

I want to cry and beg for my mum back but it is not her that I need, it is You. . .  you in this present moment...to hold me and let me know that I am IN your great ocean of love !!

The Liar cannot make me feel guilty there and You will torment him for doing so with me, Your sheep.

Gentle Shepherd,

 I have been patient this week and last, waiting for Maressa and the woman who needs care for her 6 month old.....from whom I have heard nothing....
I really do need a job. . . .  I cant go on living on borrowed time, gasoline, and unpaid debts.  I need vehicle insurance for sure.

This is between you and me, NOT Steven as I often imagine him cursing me for not acquiring a job long ago...but I have tried...I have waited for disability, I have waited for the FORWARD card....none of which I have gained.

I am more depressed stressing on the $4.25/gal of gas that takes me to the appointed times and days.

Thank you for the $85 check from WFHC which came today.

I must write countless debtors and explain my situation....can only do so with the wireless printer at the lib.  But them here I can do.

Life often speaks the language of chaos, pain, destruction and division. When we hear that harsh language, we need to remember that God's peace can transform it all into rest, clarity, healing, joy, love, and Life. That's His promise to us through the Holy Spirit. Listen as He speaks peace to you.

Beautiful Things

Gungor

from the album Beautiful Things

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All this pain
I wonder if I'll ever find my way
I wonder if my life could really change at all
All this earth
Could all that is lost ever be found
Could a garden come up from this ground at all

(Chorus)
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us

All around
Hope is springing up from this old ground
Out of chaos life is being found in You

Chorus X2

You make me new, You are making me new

The Redeemer

Sanctus Real

from the album Pieces of a Real Heart

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Sometimes I just want to start over
'Cause everything looks like a wreck
And I need the courage to carry on
'Cause I can't see what's ahead

And there are places I've wished I could be
Battles I've wanted to win
Dreams that have slipped through my hands
I may never get back again

But I'm still a dreamer, a believer
Oh, I've lost my faith in so many things
But I still believe in You
'Cause You can make anything new

Sometimes I just wish we could say
All the things that are easy to hear
Ignore the injustice we see
And explain every unanswered prayer

But I'd rather speak honestly
And wear a tattered heart on my sleeve
'Cause in the middle of my broken dreams
Redemption is here

And I'm still a dreamer, a believer
Oh, I lost my faith in so many things
But I still believe in You
'Cause You are the answer, the Redeemer

Oh, I've given up on too many things
But I'm not giving up on You
'Cause You can make anything new

I don't have every answer in life
But I'm trusting You one day at a time
'Cause You can make a weak heart stay alive
Forever

This is where heaven and earth collide
I lift my hands and I give my life
This is how my weary heart stays alive

Oh, I'm still a dreamer, still a believer
And You are the answer, the Redeemer
'Cause You can make anything new
Yeah, You can make anything new

Nothing Left to Lose

Mat Kearney

from the album Nothing Left to Lose

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Something's in the air tonight
The sky's alive with a burning light
You can mark my words something's about to break

And i found myself in a bitter fight
While i've held your hand through the Darkest night don't know where you're coming from but you're coming soon

To a kid from oregon by way of California all of this is more than I've ever known or seen

Come on and we'll sing, like we were Free push the pedal down watch the World around fly by us come on and We'll try, one last time i'm off of the floor one more time to find you

And here we go there's nothing left to Choose and here we go there's nothing left to lose

So i packed my car and headed east
Where i felt your fire and a sweet Release there's a fire in these hills thats coming down

And i don't know much but i found you Here and i can not wait another year Don't know where you're coming from but you're coming soon

To a kid from oregon by way of California all of this is more than I've ever known or seen

Come on and we'll sing, like we were Free push the pedal down watch the World around fly by us come on and We'll try, one last time i'm off of the Floor one more time to find you

And here we go there's nothing left to Choose and here we go there's nothing left to lose

I can still hear the trains out my window from hobart street to here in Nashville i can still smell the pomegranates grow and i don't know how hard this wind will blow or where we'll go

Come on and we'll sing, like we were Free push the pedal down watch the world around fly by us come on and We'll try, one last time i'm off of the Floor one more time to find you

And here we go there's nothing left to choose and here we go there's nothing left to lose

Life often speaks the language of chaos, pain, destruction and division. When we hear that harsh language, we need to remember that God's peace can transform it all into rest, clarity, healing, joy, love, and Life. That's His promise to us through the Holy Spirit. Listen as He speaks peace to you.


I have been more depressed in general....i know its because I am taking less cymbolta and abilify as prescribed, but I cannot afford the gas money needed to go and get the meds when I need them......

I should probably just take the meds and God will provide for the gas money......

Not everything Jesus taught about was unfamiliar to His listeners. But understanding from God's perspective - through the filter of holiness - was.

The Sign of the Cross
This is My blood of the new covenant, which is shed for many for the remission of sins.
Matthew 26:28,

God knew that after our salvation experience, as we sought to live a new life, we would sin again. And because of the continuing struggle with sin and failure in our lives, we would be tempted to doubt our salvation. So God gave us a sign of the new covenant. Jesus said it was the sign of His broken body and His poured-out blood. It was the sign of the cross.

Have you become so overwhelmed with your own weakness and failure and sin and inability to live a life that is pleasing to God that you have begun to doubt your salvation?
YES
Then look up! Take a good, long look at the cross and remember that God remembers. He loves you, He has forgiven you,
*He is eternally committed to you! and you are saved! Forever! Praise God! His covenant is unconditional!


It is really only when I read what 1)a failure, 2) my sins and 3)how I continue in several outright sins that I begin to doubt my salvation, and is is alwaus when I read something in a devotional.  I love Matt.  I have no idea where he stands eternally nor waht impact my "ramblings" about my Shepherd have upon him, but one thing I do know, I feel as if this is God's grace in the shape of a man for me.  Has He predestined matt to salvation?  I do not know.  What about Lily?  I do not know.  But I need both Matt and Lily.  And when I am gone, they will have each other.



I went to the library yesterday after 3 hrs at Starbucks on the laptop.  It was good to go and see all the changes and the videos and CD's available to me.  In the DVD section I felt overwhelmed with my choices, just like I felt when I walked into Blockbuster upon coming back to the States.
I picked up 2 movies The Reader and Remember Me.  Both had a surprise ending.  The first was about  a woman being tried, true story, in Berlin, for allowing 300 Jewish women to die, by burning in a church.  She lied because of pride and spent her life in prison, having affected the life of a young boy.
The second was a startling end.  Perished in the twin towers 911 after affecting his little sister and father.  Those are good movies, the kind with a moral, the kind that have truth and integrity, character.  Altho there was sexual scenes in both....I guess movies need that now to keep life in movies truthful....but why go through that when I would want someone like AJ or Ben to see the movies?
I had a good day.  Ate a huge salad, quacamole, salsa and crackers from Pick n Save.


In the PP, I must always bring before my Shepherd my need for a job and to care for my debts.  He has not forgotten, nor have I, but it does feels good to bring him this burden, which I do not need to carry into each moment.

It rained last night, so this morning is cool and wet.  Like spring.  Everything is lush green without the sun shining upon it to give it gleen.  The budgs on the trees are coming forth and I can see the beginning of lilacs.  The flowering trees are pink and white buds.  And I sit out here with Princess drinking coffee.

I have been having chest pain and headaches.  The bad kind of chest pain that worries me, goes into my arm and back, sometimes staying for hours and keeps me worried about falling asleep at night.  I need to see Dr Dizadji.

"No temptation has SEIZED you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will NOT LET YOU be tempted BEYOND WHAT YOU CAN BEAR. ...he will also provide a way out ...."
(1 Corinthians 10:13)

Jeus was led for 40 hot and dreadful days of torment into the Judean wilderness . . . why should He be tempted?

Jesus gave me HIS example:  In that desolate place Jesus faced Satan head-on without being able to find His strength in water or food, in others who'd rescue Him, or in His accomplishments (all things we value). The burden of self reliance. However, where He did find His strength to overcome temptation was in listening to God's Truth.

In any temptation we face, our strength comes by listening to God's voice of Truth through the Bible. No other voice will do.
The sheep know the Shepherd's voice.  Practice in the moment with  listening to his voice.

Energy assistance bill. . . .
thank you so much Shepherd!!
I wasnt going to open the bill, just stack it with all the others.   I have a credit of 163.00, 423.00, 61.92 and the previous balance was 524.08.
During March my bill is 101.72 and I pay only $39.80.
I am so thankful.
When the check for $85 arrives from WFHC, I will pay WE.

I received instructions for FORWARD health insurance weeks ago, but nothing else, no card or anything.
I must have that to see Dr Dizadji.

Thank you my Shepherd for these provisions of care from YOU.

I couldn't renew my vehicle insurance.... just got an email today...will call them....

I am the good shepherd; I know my sheep and my sheep know me - just as the Father knows me and I know the Father - and I lay down my life for the sheep."
(JOHN 10:14-15)

On July 8, 2005, stunned onlookers watched helplessly as 450 sheep plummeted to their deaths near the Turkish village of Gevas. The wooly train wreck started when one sheep walked off a cliff, luring more than 1,500 others to follow suit.

Sheep are known for being easily distracted, directionless, and defenseless. They utterly depend on the shepherd to provide for, preside over, and protect them. The Bible often refers to us as sheep, saying, "We all, like sheep, have gone astray, each of us has turned to his own way" (Isaiah 53:6).

The prophet Ezekiel foretold the coming of a Good Shepherd (34:11-24), the Messiah, who would save and defend His sheep. Jesus is the Good Shepherd who laid down His life for the sheep. He is our only protection against the "thieves and robbers" who seek to steal our joy and peace. The more time we spend grazing in the verdant pastures of God's Word and drinking from the waters of Truth, the more recognizable His voice will be.

INSIGHT
WE MUST DAILY FILL OUR HEARTS AND MINDS WITH GOD'S WORD SO THAT WE CAN DISTINGUISH TRUTH FROM LIES. DO YOU KNOW THE SHEPHERD'S VOICE?




"But now, this is what the LORD says - he who created you, O Jacob, he who formed you, O Israel: 'Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine.'"
(ISAIAH 43:1)


There were people of all different ages, races and stature, all waiting to be acknowledged and helped. As I thought about the myriad of broken lives and hurting souls in the world just trying to survive another day, my heart was drawn to Isaiah 43.

God's words through Isaiah remind us that we "are precious and honored in His sight, and He loves us" (vs. 4). Although we have done absolutely nothing to merit His love and grace, God lavishes it freely on us - costly though it was to Him. He is the one true Savior (vs. 11), humbly demonstrating His love on the bloody cross of Calvary. He calls His children by name, declaring them to be His very own! God's Word is filled with precious promises offering hope and assurance for lonely, desperate, weary souls. Christ did not come simply to "acknowledge" us. Those who trust in Him are redeemed by His saving blood and belong to Him!

INSIGHT
Whenever you feel alone in the water and flame, remember God's promise that the Holy One of Israel is with you!

Life is filled with terrible storms and their rauc-ous, howling, fearful noise. Sickness, rebellion, deceit, hurt, disappointment, failures, broken trust scream at us. But in the midst of life's storms, Jesus longs for us to have faith that believes He can and will rebuke them, bringing calm. Consider today, ?Where is your faith?


With little warning, the storms in my life can seem to drown me and leave me desperate, drowning, fearful and full of anxiety.
Am I prepared to encounter them?  How do I get prepared?

I Peter 5
Cast my cares, anxieties, worries, fear, desperation on/in my Shepherd...
He cares and he sustains ...
Even if I fall/fail, He IS there permitting it in the palm of his hand...am I leaning into Him?

Resist Satan's lies... stand FIRM in knowledge and faith . .
Why?
He will restore
make me strong
firmly plant me in Himself
keep me stead fast
after the short "suffering"

The changes  in your life brought about by God's Word are  primarily for the purpose that we might know God fully and intimately ....  it is his nature to communicate his love to us.

Is your life complete? Do you feel you are waiting for something, but you don't know what? Do you have an aching loneliness, a hunger pain of the spirit, a yearning deep inside yourself for something? For Someone? Then get in touch with your Creator. You are hungry for God.

You were created with a capacity to know Him in a personal, permanent, love relationship. That capacity is empty until you establish the relationship with Him for which you were created.  (Irregardless of any other relationship)

We're desperate for direction, or encouragement or just a sense that he is there.... I know full well that intimacy with God can steady my soul...  practicing PRESENT PERFECT.

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Why should I feel discouraged, why should the shadows come,
Why should my heart be lonely, and long for heav’n and home,
When Jesus is my portion? My constant Friend is He:
His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me;
His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me.
Refrain:
I sing because I’m happy, I sing because I’m free,
For His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me.
“Let not your heart be troubled,” His tender word I hear,
And resting on His goodness, I lose my doubts and fears;
Though by the path He leadeth, but one step I may see;
His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me;
His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me.
Whenever I am tempted, whenever clouds arise,
When songs give place to sighing, when hope within me dies,
I draw the closer to Him, from care He sets me free;
His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me;
His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me.

Has it ever seemed to you as if God is silent?
**We're desperate for direction, or encouragement or just a sense that He is there.
**We long to hear from Him, but no sound makes its way to us.
The Psalmist, David, cried to God to not be silent when all around him was in turmoil.
**He well knew how intimacy with God could steady his soul,
so when his enemies pursued him, he longed to hear from the Almighty.

Intimacy with God ........  being aware of God's presence gives life a far deeper meaning.

Am now reading Present Perfect and it is God's love that draws me...You only make me love You.

Simply be mindful of the fact that you are, in this present moment, 
submerged in the ocean of God's love.

To Sheri
Today i spent the day practicing present perfect.... I didnt realize how much I had been practicing until I realized, I'd been here before more than once..... with the TV off and nothing to do but to do what I need to do....there is a lot of room for just quiet meditation and practicing being with my Shepherd.    I am not prone to being on the internet either....I come here to Cheryl's house and use the computer twice a day.......    

It's harder for me to journal, cause i usually do that when I am devotioning or when something comes to me...but copy paste works well.   i am much more content than I thought I would be.....  still job hunting....  going to workforce developement on Monday and stopping into Home Depot, bed bath abd Beyond and Mileagers...I applied there last week.....  I am making an attempt to just make myself a pest if need be....but a polite charming pest.

I wrote another mail to Chrissy..... just attempting to keep my nose in her face.  Cheryl said my mail was well written and unpretencious......

thanks for praying....i feel it a lot ....  wish i could come and just talk.... when i can do so......

From Sheri 

ElLois,  I am so proud of you.  You are pressing in and finding what the Shepherd has for you as He walks with you through the valley of the shadow of death.  More then anything, He wants you, your trust, your feelings, your needs, your clinging to Him.  He is so faithful to be trusted, but we don't know that until we are in a place of having nowhere else to go but to Him.  I will keep praying that the Lord will have His way, His plans and purposes for your life fulfilled and experienced, and that you find His heart for you in all that you are going through.  Keep your focus on Him and He will guide you through with spiritual blessings and comfort and  peace....Sheri    

Last night I brought out my book PERFECT PRESENT and the Prayer of Surrender......

I got through the prayer of surrender this time.....  focused on one sentence....

My God, I want to give myself to You.  Give me the courage to do this.  My spirit within me sighs after You.  Strengthen my will.  Take me.  If I don't have strength to give You everything, then draw me by the sweetness of Your love.  Lord, who do I belong to, if not You?  What a horror to belong to myself and to my passions!

Help me to find all my happiness in You, for there is no happiness outside of You...............

Oh God, You only make me love You.  Why should I fear to give You everything and draw close to You?  To be left to the world is more frightening than this!  Your mercy can overcome any obstacle. I am unworthy of You, but I can become a miracle of Your grace.

Earlier  yesterday I was so in perfect present and realized it....I had been walking the edge of present perfect all day and when I put Selah's CD on, Be Still My Soul.... it was like I was there.....surrendered and knowing to whom I belonged and that it was ok.....  

Can I bring the Lord back into my mind-flow every few seconds so that God shall always be in my mind?

I choose to make the rest of my life an experiment in answering this question.

I was telling.sharing with God last night that I seem to have it all turned around.... I desire intimacy with Matt more than with God/my Shepherd.... and that I think it is based on the concept of service.  I desire to serve Matt and I can do so tangible but service for God is something I cannot get my head around it right now....I seem to be so far away.......

Sheep are fascinating animals. Non-aggressive and docile, they seem to be oblivious to everything around them. Yet, when surrounded by a cacophony of noise, they can distinguish their shepherd's voice and go to it. As we develop the skill of listening to God, we will learn to pay such careful attention to His voice that we will recognize it above the imposters - those voices that tempt us to follow sin instead of holiness. 


 Sadly, Eve listened to Satan; Adam listened to Eve; and then both had to listen to God's rebuke and the terrible consequences of their choices. There are times when wrong voices deceive us and tempt us to follow, too, but by pouring God's Word into our heart and minds, our spiritual ears will be trained to hear only His voice above all the rest.  



My sheep know my voice. . . .  I did not when Satan came in the form of macwill....and i suffer the terrible consequences of my choice.

Shepherd, give me ears to hear..........

7 "In my distress I called upon the Lord,
Yes, I cried to my God;
And from His temple He heard my voice,
And my cry for help came into His ears

yesterday i was very comforted and peaceful when my Shepherd spoke these words to me...cried in fact
that he does hear me

8 Then the earth shook and trembled, The foundations of heaven quaked And were shaken, because he was wroth.

9 There went up a smoke out of his nostrils, And fire out of his mouth devoured: Coals were kindled by it.

10 He bowed the heavens also, and came down; And thick darkness was under his feet.

11 And he rode upon a cherub, and did fly; Yea, he was seen upon the wings of the wind.

12 And he made darkness pavilions round about him, Gathering of waters, thick clouds of the skies.

13 At the brightness before him Coals of fire were kindled.

14 Jehovah thundered from heaven, And the Most High uttered his voice.

15 And he sent out arrows, and scattered them; Lightning, and discomfited them.

16 Then the channels of the sea appeared, The foundations of the world were laid bare, By the rebuke of Jehovah, At the blast of the breath of his nostrils.

17 He sent from on high, he took me; He drew me out of many waters;

18 He delivered me from my strong enemy, From them that hated me; for they were too mighty for me.

19 They came upon me in the day of my calamity; But Jehovah was my stay.


today as I read, i notice right after God hears me...there is a rushing, quaking, swooping, racing of winds
waters...almost like terror enveloping everything.......  BUT Jehovah was my stay.


 it doesnt matter the kind of storm, or waht is happening.... HE HEARD MY VOICE, HE IS MY STAY

then I read..... a blessed reassurance again ~~

20 He brought me forth also into a large place; He delivered me, because he delighted in me.

no matter how big the terror, the wind, the quake, the nightmare, the storm i am brought to a larger place...why BECAUSE HE DELIGHTS IN ME