we can give our pain to our Savior,

Inside of me is crying, my eyes are near tears....
My phone was shut off before I could call this morning.....

for some reason still have the Internet.

cast all my care on him for he cares for me.... he cares about waht I cast upon Him

 Have you wondered, in agony, why God is doing what He's doing? Why He has delayed answering your prayer? Have you reacted to the delay by trying to help Him out and speed things up? Have you turned to . . . a doctor, a lawyer, a counselor, a friend, pop psychology, a neighbor's sympathetic ear, or a popular TV talk show? Have you resorted to threats

or bargaining or manipulation until you're totally exhausted? Have you come to the absolute end of your rope?

One reason God may be delaying His answer to your prayer and postponing His intervention in your situation is to bring you to the end of your own resources. Sometimes God waits in order to allow us time to exhaust every other avenue of help until we finally realize without any doubt or reservation that we are totally helpless without Him.

Well I am there...at the end of my resources.  Am not so sure how much I can function without a phone.

I am at the end of my resources Lord.....  I have $70 to my name and I have cried out to cheryl in hope she would suggest borrowing...but she has not.
I tried to manipulate Chrissy into helping me but that sincerely failed..
I have cried out to Sheri that I am attempting to trust...but am I really?

Am I really totally relying on you help me in this nightmare of financial messes?  God helps those who help themselves....I know I have been lazy and I begged forgiveness of it.  I need your help to keep going and not allow this crisis to tell my family and beg for help..... I have ruined them enough.

I go to my quiet place begging you for resolve